πŸ”Š Daily music

Feb. 22nd, 2026 09:05 pm
bluapapilio: Allen, Anne and Hajun from the band BAE in Paradox Live (ParaLive BAE)
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@ Spotify

It's feeling like déjà vu
When I'm standing next to you
And all these years of running
They led me straight to you
🎀
Cannons - Crush

got another one lads ~

Feb. 22nd, 2026 05:34 pm
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lowkey tickled to be a small part of the current EN-fandom doujinshi revival :3c

of all types of art mediums/projects, it's probably the one i'm surprised to have gotten the most sustained emotional satisfaction from, despite the outsized effort involved.

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Feb. 22nd, 2026 03:02 pm
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🌈BL Manga Check-in: "Meimu"

Feb. 22nd, 2026 10:57 am
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"Meimu /
Delusion"

Shimotsuki Kairi, 2008

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Summary:
A short 8 page story about a commanding officer and a disobedient fighter pilot's concerns regarding death in combat.

My comments
: I had this on my TBR because it's by the author of Brave 10 and I was desperate for more of her male/male dynamics. I didn't realize this was going to give me heart palpitations.

The characters are fighter jet pilots. Toudou is the commanding officer, he's a rough guy. Trine seems more laid-back. He writes his last rites basically on his jet and Toudou gets mad seemingly because it's against the rules but it's way more about the idea of losing Toudou, because he wouldn't make it through if he died. I get the feeling they weren't together before, but this was Toudou's way of confessing by bringing up 'lover's suicide' and Trine responding with the kiss.

I was so worried it would end with a sad page geeze my heart.
 
Art: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Characters: ⭐️⭐⭐⭐⭐
Story: β­οΈβ­β­β­
Rereadable: πŸ‡Ύ
My rating: 4.5/5

Hard Hat Mack (1983)

Feb. 22nd, 2026 09:54 am
pauraque: Guybrush writing in his journal adrift on the sea in a bumper car (monkey island adrift)
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This early PC platformer is of no small historical interest, as it was the first game released by everybody's favorite totally uncontroversial and non-resented game publishing company, Electronic Arts. Like most of their titles then and now, it wasn't developed in-house; Michael Abbott and Matthew Alexander get the design and programming credit for this one.

grid of construction scaffolding with gaps and chains hanging down to climb

But you don't need to me to tell you the illustrious history of EA (or, as it was briefly called at its inception, "Amazin' Software"β€”and I can't tell you how disappointed I am that we don't live in the timeline where they kept that name). I guess you also don't technically need me to tell you about this ridiculous game and my memories of playing it while being unable to identify most of the characters and objects it contains, but I'm going to go ahead anyway.

In Hard Hat Mack you play as a construction worker. I did understand that much. In the first level you have to collect pieces of a beam and use them to fill in the gaps, and then grab a wandering jackhammer to hammer them into place. This is where my understanding of the game began to break down; I thought the jackhammer was a tornado. )

Hard Hat Mack is... well, it sure is a game. You can find it on abandonware sites, but I couldn't really get it to run well on any version or emulator I tried. The DOS version (which I had as a kid) runs too fast in DOSBox by default, but when I reduced the clock speed I found that it lagged badly when multiple objects were moving, which made the second level pretty much unplayable. We probably shouldn't hold our breaths for EA to offer a re-release, and maybe that's for the best.

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Feb. 21st, 2026 12:19 am
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On Wednesday, my father pulled up a flyer on Facebook for a nerd-show next weekend and incredibly nearby. Even though I have a fairly strict no-winter-shows rule because, uh, weather, this is close enough and cheap enough that I figured if I get a table and nothing comes of it, I at least got to hang out with other nerds for a few hours. Anyway, got a table, lol, and will spend some of this weekend/coming week sorting out some stuff to take. This looks like it might become ~monthly and if it takes off and I can maintain a table, it'll really help the clear-out. (The only other table I have booked this year is Semmex and that's not a personal table. I also don't want to spend every weekend this year trying to sell my stuff but I really do need to do the cleanout. Blrgh. Blrrrrgh.)

Finished up the KO GM and it's... okay. Some parts sucked to build but overall it's fine. I was thinking he needed a friend and was looking up other GMs and then suddenly remembered maybe I had one in the back of a cabinet? Sure enough... It is a very old HGUC kit and the nubs have yellowed like I've seen on a lot of old Gundam Wing kits. Since this GM has probably been in the back of the cabinet since being built, I can only assume it's age + plastic quality. Anyway, the GMs can be slightly messy friends, lol.

Going to work on the Destiny Astray today and maybe get the body done this weekend? I'm hopeful. IDK what my next kit will be but it will be Bandai so it at least will go together without extensive modification and/or pain.

February Manga TBR 4

Feb. 21st, 2026 11:48 pm
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Used my manga TBR boardgame.

I finished 7/6 on my last board. Even though I only read 1 chapter of non-BL stuff, the BL stuff was mostly great so I was happy. :'> I hope I get to read another great BL and I'll get to use my new scale again.

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Conan
 Skill: Beat the trap tile once, draw a prompt


Roll #1:

An 8! Generate from TBR list! #1108. It's a oneshot called Meimu.

Roll #2:

A 10, prompt: roommates. 3P Lovers Shared House. The tags are very polarizing, apparently it's both toxic AND wholesome...

Roll #3:

An 8, prompt: amnesia. B-Eyes. This one has both shoujo and bromance so I'm a little worried, maybe I'll be able to OT3 them in my head though?

Roll #4:

A 5, prompt: historical. Let's see how well I remember Golden Kamuy...

Roll #5:

A 7, prompt: manga by a woman that got an anime. Blue Exorcist.

Roll #6:

An 8 and the end, that went fast although I'm about to conk the fuck out. The physical BL manga this time is Sweet Revolution. Only 5 single volumes left now...

Most looking forward to: 3P Lovers Shared House
Least looking forward to: Meimu? it's only like 8 pages though

~Manga TBR List~


[BL/Drama] Meimu βœ”️
[BL/Comedy] 3P Lovers Share House βœ”️
[Shoujo/Horror] B-Eyes βœ”️
[Action/Comedy] Golden Kamuy βœ”οΈ
[Action/Fantasy] Blue Exorcist βœ”️
[BL/Romance] Sweet Revolution πŸ“–

x1 shoujo, x2 shounen, x3 BL

February Manga Wrap-Up 3

Feb. 21st, 2026 11:00 pm
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 I read the BL Beta Off Not Dating and rated it 7.5/10! 

 Read chapter 10 of Men of the Harem.

 Read chapter 23 of Ouji-sama nante Iranai.

 Read chapter 115 of Dr. Stone!

 Read the BL off stage love side, rated it 8/10! 

 Read the BL Shards of Affection and rated it 6.5/10. 

 And finally, I read off stage love side Re and rated it 9/10!!. 

Recent Reading: Our Share of Night

Feb. 21st, 2026 05:51 pm
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If Mexican Gothic left you craving more South American fantasy horror, Our Share of Night by Mariana Enriquez of Argentina (translated from Spanish by Megan McDowell) has you covered. This is a family epic intertwined with the dark machinations of a macabre cult and its impact. It's also a splendid allegory for the evils of colonialism and generational trauma. This book was #15 from the "Women in Translation" rec list.

The book begins with Juan, a powerful but ill man who acts as a "medium" for the cult to commune with its dark god. Juan, struggling with the health of his defective heart, the wear-and-tear of years as the medium, and the grief and rage of his wife's recent death (he suspects, at the orders of the cult he serves) is desperate to keep his son Gaspar from stepping into his shoes, as the cult wants. Juan's opening segment of the book is about his efforts to protect Gaspar.

From there, the book branches off into other perspectives which give background to both the cult and the family. This is a great way of giving us a holistic and generational view of the cult, but it does drag occasionally. Gaspar's sections--in his childhood and then later in his teens/young adulthood--together make up the majority of the book, and while enjoyable, do amble off into great detail about his and his friends' day-to-day lives, such that I did wonder sometimes when we were getting back to the plot. I don't like to cite pacing issues, because I think that gets thrown around a lot whenever someone didn't vibe with a book, but the drawn-out length of these quotidian sections doesn't fit well with how quickly the climax of the book passes and is wrapped up. I would have liked to have spent less time with Gaspar at soccer games and more on his plans for addressing the cult.

However, on the whole, the book is a fun, if very dark read. It also serves well as a critique of Argentina's moneyed class and of colonialism in general, and how money sticks with money even across borders. Here, Argentina's wealthy have more in common with English money than with the Argentine lower classes (and that's how they want it). The cult, populated at its upper echelons by the privileged, is an almost literal blight on the land, willing to sacrifice an endless amount of blood, local and otherwise, to beg power off a hungry and unknown supernatural entity.

It brutalizes its mediums, which it often plucks from poverty to wring for power and then discard. Juan was adopted away from his own poor family at six, under the insistence his parents would not be able to pay for the medical care he needed, and he is the least-abused of the cult's line of mediums. As soon as the cult sets their eye on his son, Juan must begin scheming how to keep Gaspar away from them.

Although he acts out of love of his son, Juan is also a deeply flawed person. He is secretive, moody, lies constantly (there is actual gaslighting here) and doesn't hesitate to knock Gaspar around to make him obey. The more he deteriorates--a common problem with all cult mediums--the less human he becomes. Part of this is his work, but much of it is also attributable to years of being used by the cult for its ends and the accumulated emotional trauma. This, of course, is then inflicted on Gaspar through his father's tempers and secrets.

Similarly flawed are the other members of the immediate family. Juan's wife Rosario, despite a better nature than her parents, still supports this cult and is eager for Gaspar to follow in his father's footsteps as a cult medium, in part for the prestige it will bring her as his mother. Gaspar, although far more empathetic and gentle than either of his parents, eventually grows up with his father's temper. Watching him grow from a sweet-natured little boy into the troubled young adult he becomes after years of his father's abuse and neglect is painful, but realistic.

The book is also unexpectedly queer. It's not often a book surprises me with its queerness, because that's usually what landed it on my radar in the first place, but this one did. Juan and Rosario are both bisexual and later in the book we spend some active time in Argentina's queer scene, including during the AIDS crisis in the 1980s. 

The translation was great! It read very naturally, even the dialogue, and it never felt stilted or awkward in its phrasing.

An ambitious novel that for the most part, pulls off what it's trying to do. As mentioned, I wish the ending had gotten more room to breathe, and I would not have minded this coming at the cost of some of the middle bits of navel-gazing, but I still felt the story was satisfying. 

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Feb. 21st, 2026 02:22 pm
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Feb. 21st, 2026 02:19 pm
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It can be a real challenge to characterise the fictional members of the Cornley Drama Society, given that they spend so much of Goes Wrong canon playing other characters. Therefore, I thought I'd see if I could put together a character profile of Robert Grove.

'Are you going to write characterisation guides for the entire drama society?' No. I'll be honest: I just wanted an excuse to talk at length about Robert Grove, because he's perfect.


Robert Grove: a character summary. )


Robert's best quality as a friend: he will give generously of his time and effort to fix your problem, or at least to fix what he has decided is your problem. This... may not actually be helpful, but it will at least be well-intentioned.

Robert's worst quality as a friend: he will sleep with your mother, insult your acting and throw you under the bus to play the Dane, and he won't even understand why you're annoyed with him afterwards.


In short, Robert is an egotistic and outspoken man with a passion for theatre, an intense sincerity, a vast capacity for self-absorption, a need to be important, a desire for company and an absolute lack of self-awareness. He's relentlessly loud and dramatic. He will refuse to apologise if he doesn't think he's in the wrong, and he will never think he's in the wrong. He's a nightmare. I love him.
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I didn't watch Dunc and Egg but Cam did, and he found himself thinking about how fun it could be to have a story where a somewhat loner knight (disgraced/unproven/just antisocial, whatever) takes on a determined and surprisingly knowledgable page, who he eventually realises is a girl in disguise, and they have Adventures (but no romance, preferably)

He asked if I knew of any stories like that, since it feels like a really obvious premise, and I felt like I must have seen something along those lines by Tamora Pierce/ Mercedes Lackey etc but nothing came to mind. eg the Alanna series has the crossdressing page part but not the loner knight, Kel doesn't have the cross-dressing, etc.

So I come to you! At this point we're mostly just curious if it exists at all, but actual recs are definitely not unwelcome. Books/tv/movies, whatever.

πŸ’€ Dreams Check-in

Feb. 20th, 2026 10:31 pm
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Fragment: Opened my eyes to darkness, I was in a car, realized I was somewhere I knew and started looking around.

Fragment: Running around putting game missions together and getting confused. Opened a door and dad was there and said something but I didn't hear anything, I wondered if he was malfunctioning because he was a clone machine. There was a plot revolving around a mystery

Fragment: Riding in the passenger seat while dad is driving, he suddenly opens his door.

Fragment: Sneaking into a house (not sure if it was 'Me'), going through birthday toy gifts, two kids were on the balcony up the stairs with one filming. They had red MAGA hats on. They were crying as they walked away. They went back to school to their classroom to tell everyone what happened.

Fragment: Can't tell if this is connected to the previous dream, the recordings are one minute apart but.

There was food on the stove, apparently the people had to clear out pretty fast. We couldn't take any of the stuff or they'd notice.

My sister, her husband and dad are there. BIL covers me, who is curled up on the floor(?) with a really big coat and I snuggle into it.

The light in the kitchen is on and a bunch of people suddenly start going by outside. Sister uses an intercom to start calling out old high school friends, and there's cheering - apparently they knew she was coming. I remember thinking that 'will they even remember her, it's been 15 years' (note: it's been longer than that irl).

πŸ”Š Daily music

Feb. 20th, 2026 07:31 pm
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@ Spotify

Times you can’t fake it come with pain
But the chemistry of the moment we met
Wake up
Wake up the DNA
Pain breaks into mere fragments
No way
No way
If it’s with you
Never give up
🎡
YENA - DNA [
translation]

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