J'avais des astres dans les yeux

People who read on AO3 tend to say things like "I back out of a fic if there's SPAG issues and especially if the paragraphs are too dense." (I read a lot of fandom secrets. I have seen this sentiment on so many secrets about AO3.)

I simply do not understand this sentiment and also I am offended as the king of typos and as a long paragraph enjoyer. Honestly ever since I started using that site I've had difficulty with trying to format my writing into the site's "style." I dislike breaking up my paragraphs. Sometimes a thematic idea spans more than just a few lines, okay.

Not that I'm going to post it on AO3 (for reasons beyond this post), but I'm editing a fic right now and I still keep thinking about where to chop it up. There are perfectly good reasons to divide lines, one of them not being because it's "too long."

Relatedly-ish. I cannot stand the way French novels do dialogue. Why is the actual dialog and the tags and/or actions in one ambiguous long line (Yes, yes, the tenses delineate I know, I just don't clock them that quickly). (Maybe it's also a newer style or just with translations that there's no guillemets? Emmanuel Carrère's La Moustache has guillemets, but I haven't seen them in other books so far.) It drives me crazy. However, I'm not a little weak ass about it.

I have made it a mission to bring this frustration to English readers in another fic I am working on where when they talk in French I am going to use this horrible style of punctuation. Also not gonna post that one on AO3, but to anyone who would absolutely hate this and leave I have but one response:

— Then perish, I say as the room is suddenly tinted red. Your focus is brought to the look of apathy in my eyes. Die mad about it.

Lovely word trackers. Beautiful spreadsheets chock full of cells with formulas that populate graphs to ponder over.

( Here are some I plan to use )

Whether you use trackers or not happy writing in 2021 and good luck!

I'm slowly working on my long fic. I really do enjoy it, but man have I been stuck on these latest chapters. I guess since the POV switches it takes me a while to get into the next character's head enough to write something not totally bland. I know where I want to go and what conflicts I want to have, but of course trying to transcribe the feelings I want to invoke into actual words is tough!

Well anyway, in my desperation to write something every day this month I started a new document of a little idea that's been rattling around in my brain for some time. One that is absolutely solely for me, that I have no plans at all to publish or show to anyone else at all. And gosh it is so freeing and fun to just explore my character and writing style without worrying about having too much exposition or just jumping into another scene like nothing hehe. It's like, no thoughts head empty keyboard machine go brrrrrrr. (Please excuse my meme usage, I cannot communicate without them 😔 the internet has hobbled me.)

Both ways of writing are really fun. I love the critical thinking that's a part of trying to write something interesting and pleasant to read and also the exhilaration of just spitting out all these ideas stuck in the back of my mind. Words are good.

I...really don't like knowing how many people clicked on my fic. I think I said something about this on twitter before yeah.

its different than having something in a paper or magazine or even reading a piece to a group bc its constantly out there AND always telling you how many people interacted with it - joejoeia

I know people tend to only leave Kudos when they really like something and a comment almost never, so I try not to mind the hit to kudos ratio & don't expect comments at all. However, knowing 20, 50, 100, 300, 500, 1000! people clicked on my thing freaks me out. Even if they left within the first sentence 😵 I'll never know how many people actually read it, but they at least saw part of it and that's still shocking 😱

I'm absolutely chuffed to bits when something I wrote gets bookmarked though. It's unfathomable, yet pleasant. I can't quite pin down why I find hits so dreadful though. Perhaps I am internalizing the hits to kudos ratio because I know other people care about it? Or it's part of the mortifying ordeal of being known!? lol.

I'm trying to do a Valentine's prompt list (4ish days left, I have 1/14 done 😂). I don't think I can write fluff. I stare at the prompt > I get an idea > I remember it's supposed to be romantic > I stare at the prompt.

It's also funny that every time I've told my friend I was gonna write something erotic it ended up having a lot of plot and I completely forgot about the nsfw. I had to go back and shove it in there (lol). One of the longer pieces (book, you can say book) I was working on before deciding to dive into fanfiction was supposed to be erotic in the vein of a shitty hentai manga and yeah, I forgot, so I started shooting (hah) towards something like Captive Prince. (The only straight up pwp thing I ever wrote was some Fire Emblem Fates thing ahahah.)

I might just love angst and pining too much for any couple to ever get together and be happy 😂

5k behind already on nanowrimo, but I've been chugging along 😣
Sitting at 16,122 words rn

But.... sims 4 university is coming out tomorrow night and I wanna play it 🥺
Prolly gonna binge the sims and get even more behind aaaahhh
I just got a gaming PC too, so it runs so smooth 😫👌