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Jul. 18th, 2019 11:18 pm
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Hello, I'm Joey. He/Him.

I mostly post about the 3 R's: Reading, 'Riting, and Rvideogames!
My favorite of each are: Reading Historical Fiction, Writing Angst, and Playing RPGs.

I really love Dragon Age (if that's not immediately apparent).
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Earlier this month I was so into writing my silly little fics. Got really into using Ellipsus. I like the drafting system, but it's mostly because I can log in very easily at work, teehee (nothing in there is explicit, it's all gen fic for now.). I even finished one! It's gonna get one last breathing room pass before it goes up on the website. My website that I did not forget about. Pssh.

Yeah, and then I totally didn't sideline fic to start playing Warhammer 40K: Rogue Trader (yes I did, and it's pretty fun). Then my friend got me into Love and Deepspace and I have no idea where all my time has gone. Life is a blur of sexy pixel men and little red diamonds.

I watched Grand Theft Hamlet with my friend and we went out to lunch after at a Vietnamese place I hadn't been to since 2017. It was still good! The movie/documentary was also interesting. I thought it would just be funny watching them get killed in GTA Online, but I rather liked their production of Hamlet in the game that we got to see. And I was very glad that it made my friend interested in Hamlet!

I have 15 books out from the library, but I cannot bring myself to start reading a single one (RIP). I did finish reading Prince of Thorns by Mark Lawrence in early April. Quite fun, I really enjoyed it.
I was doing the audiobook/text combo of A Court of Thorns and Roses in French, but Rogue Trader ended that too before it got blowed away itself. I ended up catching up on some comics I have bookmarked though. And just binged a really good one called Dead Man's Switch.

Even when my internet conked out for 3 days, what did I do? Lounged around with my phone's wifi (reading those comics lmao). There aren't enough hours in the day and I cannot get a grip on how easily distracted I am. I have half a crocheted blanket next to me right now. It's absolutely wild how I cannot remember anything I've done if I'm not journalling about it. Am I a goldfish??

Work has been a little stressful because one of the volunteers I am in charge of has suddenly started doing a real dog shit job and I'm like—I don't want to kick you to the curb, but come on bruh. I feel like there's very little I can do. And it makes me not want to take on more volunteers because look—I'm already having trouble managing this many! I wish I wasn't the sole person in charge of them, but I can't seem to work out any communication channels that will get everyone else on board. They see it as "not my department" yet are very eager to tell me when it's going wrong, thanks!!!!!! My best friend told me I need to be more of a bitch lmao. Other than that area though I've been having fun with the events and my other program, I love getting to let my theatrical nature shine.

Anyway, I was writing this to remember what the heck I've been up to all month. I really need to get back into journalling regularly.

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People who read on AO3 tend to say things like "I back out of a fic if there's SPAG issues and especially if the paragraphs are too dense." (I read a lot of fandom secrets. I have seen this sentiment on so many secrets about AO3.)

I simply do not understand this sentiment and also I am offended as the king of typos and as a long paragraph enjoyer. Honestly ever since I started using that site I've had difficulty with trying to format my writing into the site's "style." I dislike breaking up my paragraphs. Sometimes a thematic idea spans more than just a few lines, okay.

Not that I'm going to post it on AO3 (for reasons beyond this post), but I'm editing a fic right now and I still keep thinking about where to chop it up. There are perfectly good reasons to divide lines, one of them not being because it's "too long."

Relatedly-ish. I cannot stand the way French novels do dialogue. Why is the actual dialog and the tags and/or actions in one ambiguous long line (Yes, yes, the tenses delineate I know, I just don't clock them that quickly). (Maybe it's also a newer style or just with translations that there's no guillemets? Emmanuel Carrère's La Moustache has guillemets, but I haven't seen them in other books so far.) It drives me crazy. However, I'm not a little weak ass about it.

I have made it a mission to bring this frustration to English readers in another fic I am working on where when they talk in French I am going to use this horrible style of punctuation. Also not gonna post that one on AO3, but to anyone who would absolutely hate this and leave I have but one response:

— Then perish, I say as the room is suddenly tinted red. Your focus is brought to the look of apathy in my eyes. Die mad about it.

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The sum of a text is the collaboration between writer and reader. Every writer begins as a reader learning how to interpret letters, sentences, paragraphs, stories. Take these interpretations to a fresh blank page. A single line in a new work can act as a hyperlink to an interpretation of another. But it takes the mind of the reader to click onto and parse that hyperlink. The place where the reader's thoughts collide with the writer's creates a crater of depth able to be mined for precious minerals.

Part of the fun of reading is pairing your imagination with the writer's like a good wine and cheese. Part of the fun of writing is leaving broader implications to the reader's imagination. Just as one cannot articulate every little train of thought into speech, the writer cannot put down every facet of a character or world. And why should they? Sometimes it's fun to ask people to guess. Guess what I found under the seat of the bus, guess what I bought you for your birthday, guess who I saw in the park. Guess why the curtains are blue, I've given you the clues. A great writer lets their work be a bit of a puzzle. A great reader finds enjoyment in being challenged.

As Thomas C. Foster writes in How to Read Literature Like a Professor (2014)
"We tend to give writers all the credit, but reading is also an event of the imagination; our creativity, our inventiveness, encounters those of the writer, and in that meeting we puzzle out what she means, what we understand her to mean, what uses we can put her writing to."

There are perils in this mutual work. A writer may distrust their reader and try to get ahead of any interpretations by making their themes plain or including no symbolism at all. A fear of the reader making a bad faith claim. As Foster continues,
"Imagination isn't fantasy. That is to say, we can't simply invent meaning without the writer, or if we can, we ought not to hold her to it."

Yes, there is risk of misinterpretation, but why should we preemptively leave our windows plain or bare in fear that bad actors will rip our curtains down and throw them in the trash. They will do that whether the curtains are blue or pure white, and they will break our windows too.

A responsible reader responds to what actually appears in the text. This is why any good analysis of a story is asked to prove itself with examples and direct quotes. Evidence of your interpretation through the context of the story. So that it can then be agreed with or refuted by others who have also read the text.

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There's a reading meme going around on youtube and I wanted to fill it out so I did.

Source: get to know my taste tag (original)— mynameismarines

The Questions
  1. How do you rate books? Give a quick rundown of how you do your star ratings (or if you don’t use star ratings, how you evaluate books).
  2. How do you approach reviewing books? What’s your review style? Are you analytical, emotional, casual, or structured?
  3. What’s the book that made you a reader? Whether it was your first favorite or the one that got you hooked, what book started it all?
  4. Do you have a genre niche? Are there certain genres you gravitate toward? Or do you read widely across genres?
  5. Do you generally prefer character-driven or plot-driven stories?
  6. What’s a book you love so much that you don’t care if others don’t like it? What’s that one book you love enough for everyone?
  7. What’s a book you love so much that if someone doesn’t like it, you know your reading tastes don’t align? The book or books where a difference of opinion is a strong indicator of different reading preferences.
  8. What’s in your “trash pocket”? What books, tropes, or themes that you know are bad but you love them anyway?
  9. Do you have any dealbreakers in books? Something that, if present, immediately turns you off from a book.
  10. What’s a strong opinion you have about a book released within the last year? Whether it’s overrated, underrated, or just a take you need to share.
  11. What do you look for in writing? What makes a book stand out to you? Is it prose style, themes, voice, structure, or something else?
  12. How do you decide what to read next? Do you plan ahead, mood read, or follow external factors (hype, recommendations, ARCs)?
I took out the Booktube specific questions.

This is long. I did all the questions at once. )
alaterdate: DA2 Rivalry Icon (Rivalry)

Me: Okay im going to learn knitting!

Pattern: Great! I'm for beginners!
Pattern: Cast on 74 sts

Youtube man: Haha knitting is so easy :)

Me, losing all my stitches popping off the end of my overencumbered needle: ah, fuck, ah , shit

my sister bought me this giant ass boulder of yarn
i thought the size would make it easier to learn with
seriously thinking of just crocheting something with it aaahhhh
they didn't give me a crochet pattern on the label though so i was like: repeat post

alaterdate: Kiyoshi (Kiyoshi)

I fell into a Stardew Valley hole since I decided to play it in French. My thought process goes, "it's immersion" and then I have leeway to play games through all my free time instead of actually studying. But truthfully, I've mined some surprisingly useful words from it. Some farming related words were in a story in the graded reader I'm working through and that was fun for me. But after a bit I tend to not talk to the townsfolk much, alack. I also accidentally gifted Robin a pebble because I thought the quest said she wanted rocks (when it was actually asking me to mine rocks) and she didn't like that, whoops. Another thing that tripped me up was that Clint has a quest on the board to kill 50 "Vers" and for quite a while I could not figure out what that meant because otherwise they are just called "Larves" in the wiki and game.

I tried to get back into using Anki with the frequency list from routledge and at first I was making my own cards, but it's so tedious. I found a deck someone else made and started using that. But I realized that I'm not a flashcard man anymore. They bore me. And secondly, I shouldn't waste time going over words I already know nor words that I'm going to be frequently exposed to anyway (duh 🤦). We can chalk this up a bit to me not being aware of the anki meta of only using Suspend, Again, and Good. But with the premade deck and suspending the super easy ones I've decided to give it another honest go (third time's the charm? I would like to be able to say "I know X many words" just because I'm a sucker for metrics).

I got some French Language Study materials for free a while ago and finally dug into them at the end of last year to see what would be useful. Wish I could have gotten the Windows 3.1 disc to run, while I don't think it would be useful it would have been fun for a bit. The most useful thing I got was definitely the copy of "Pronounce It! Perfectly in French" Learning a new language you will be told, multiple times, that learning the sounds is essential. And it's true, but going through this book and accompanying CDs I have to check how words are pronounced less and less. And hopefully it can help me develop my ear further.

It's been a month of going through this "course" I made for myself with the materials I've gathered and my reading was already the thing I was most comfortable with, but I've learned more actual grammar points instead of just floating by on what I was only vaguely aware from that one semester in college. Yet, I remain too intimidated to dive into a full length novel. My writing is simple. My listening is still abysmal if it's not "slow french," but I will focus on that later. Speaking is about as simple as my writing. I don't exactly know what I want to do for output. People always suggest journaling, but that tends to get me really caught up in rabbit holes. Right now I just do the description exercises from 50 French Coffee Breaks.

I've taken a few different online assessment tests and they put me in B1, so I'm pleased with where a month of actually going through a text book & other assorted learning materials has gotten me. And I planned out four months worth of things to go through. My goal is to read that novel afterward.

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If you hover your mouse over the star ratings on Goodreads and Audible the 3-star option is "I liked it" and "Pretty good" respectively. But to me 3-stars means "It was okay." It's not a book I would particularly recommend, but also not one I'd dissuade people from reading.
Herein lies the problem. If the websites are marking 3-stars as "good" instead of "okay" then in actuality shouldn't all my 3-star ratings be rated as 2-stars instead? "It was okay" (Goodreads) & "It's okay" (Audible).
Then all my 2-stars would drop to 1-star! But 2-stars is just an abysmal rating. A 2-star book is one that I would mention how I found it lacking if someone brought it up. And I save the 1-star rating for things I actually didn't like and would want to dissuade someone from reading. I don't really use star ratings in the contents of my own reviews/logs or on my website. I have a loose tag here I've been considering removing in favor of just tagging them with genres, but I do mark them on the website. So should I follow their metrics when rating books on their site?? It seems much harsher than my actual opinion.

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Ava Reid heard you like stories so she put a story in your story.

Again.

She loves doing this. I kind of think it's funny how much literary analysis her characters do in this book and for the silliest snippets of her imaginary story. The quotes so reminded me of the over-the-top writing in something like Rainbow Rowell's Simon Snow books. Anyway, A Study in Drowning is the third book I've read from Reid and sadly the blandest!

I've had a love-hate relationship with her books. She writes well and her perspective on prejudice and misogyny is at least interesting to read in the sphere she's published in in (YA, New Adult). This book includes those topics, but I wouldn't say it was done well here, especially the prejudice that never gets addressed.

cut for length )

I have to say this is my least favorite of her novels, though I haven't read Lady Macbeth yet (and I hear it's not good!). I want to say that this novel had the bones for something good, but I think I liked my own idea of what might've happened in this book before I got a quarter through and it fell apart. The cover is nice though. It wasn't the worst thing I've ever read, but I think my issue with whether or not I actually enjoy her books is now skewing towards "no." I'd rather be torn and mad, than bored and disappointed.

I listened to the audiobook of this so it didn't have the acknowledgements at the back, but apparently she gives an acknowledgment to Zelda Fitzgerald which is insane, 'cause girl this book is not good. But now I see where the MC's name came from 💀.

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31 Days of Dragon Age is a prompt list floating around tumblr meant to celebrate what we love about Dragon Age in the lead up to the release of the next game. Prompts here.
I decided to post them by game rather than each day, so here are my answers for the last three questions.

29 — What do you love about Dragon Age?

The world. The lore and the politics and tensions drew me in so hard. I didn't even like fantasy or the medieval aesthetic before I got into Dragon Age.

The horror. There's so much fucked up stuff that I just love. Fucked up people, fucked up creatures, fucked up implications. What a playground.

The characters. Did not know you could romance people in this game. I was into Otome games, but they were so hard to get a hold of and here was one easily available (lol), needless to say I was stoked at the prospect. Beyond that, they're written so well. I loved that every Origins character had multiple facets to them that you had to pry into their little lives to discover. And then Dragon Age II just pulled me in forever.

Fenris. I love him. I love him. I love him.

30 — What do you hope for in VG?

Honestly, I just want more fucked up stuff about the Wardens. I was hoping the First Warden was actually a ghoul, but it's fine! I especially hope we get to pick Davrin's brain about the Wardens, he doesn't seem too enthusiastic about all their secretiveness. It'll be refreshing after Blackwall annoying the crap out of me in Inquisition.

I try not to have any high expectations as a rule.

31 — Introduce your Rook

I decided around the end of "Dragon Age Summer" to use one of my side character OCs as my first Rook. I was looking at all the details coming out to see if he was even a viable option to make in the game because of course he already has something of a backstory that grew when he ended up with his own spin-off story because I already liked him so much lol. It looks like I can work with what they're giving me with minimal need to head cannon/imagine different so that's great! Otherwise I would have abandoned this idea especially because:

I think it's a huge mistake to plan a character before even touching the character creator, but whoops. I haven't decided on his looks yet though. I do have a vague idea of hair/eye color, build, style from already having written for him, but I'm going to let the character creator help cement him rather than trying to create a specific look.

With using him as the PC for Veilguard I think he's become my specialist little boy of all. We'll find out if his story actually sticks once I finish the game with him. Otherwise it's back to non-PC status for him.

See you in Thedas!

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31 Days of Dragon Age is a prompt list floating around tumblr meant to celebrate what we love about Dragon Age in the lead up to the release of the next game. Prompts here.
I decided to post them by game rather than each day, so here are my answers for the Dragon Age Inquisition questions.

21 — Introduce your Inquisitor

Like Origins I've played tons of different PCs in Inquisition. Did I finish the game with all of them? No. Most of them? Also no. I got something like 5 distinct Inquisitors to the end, but I've played a certain guy multiple times.

Basically my main world state contains the characters that I feel like writing the most about. Which, well, I still have trouble with for the Inquisitor. I keep replaying the PC I'm most interested in to get more of a feel for him. This most recent playthrough has been more of a breakthrough. Yeah, it's taken me 10 years to connect with a PC in this game, and it's still a work in progress.

With that said, Fenian is a Dalish elf who has long struggled with what that means to him. This is mainly the fault of his father who always sought to use the power structure of the clan for personal reasons. In his father's eyes, with his sister manifesting magic and him being mundane, anything he could ever achieve would never be as worthy as her simply existing.

Still, he's a master archer with a love for history including military battles. Since most books are written by and about humans he grows a deep interest in them to the rest of his clan's dismay. They're fine when he's haggling out a deal with a passing merchant for them, but they hate that he's so pulled toward the shems.

Of course he's the one sent to the conclave. No matter how much his sister protested his going. Just as she feared, he left the clan and never returned.

He's the kind of guy that makes jokes so that people will like him. He's always thinking about how to get people to like him. He'll do things other people don't want to do, so that they'll like him. He'll do what he's asked, so that you'll like him.

It takes a while for him to grow into the leadership position. He's still always somewhat swayed by his favored companions. The more decisions he makes, the more he grows into it. He becomes less interested in the ideal outcome and more concerned with the pressing needs immediately in front of him.

22 — Favorite Inquisition romance

Uh er ah. I wouldn't say I have a favorite. But there's aspects in some of them that I think are fantastic.

Josephine - The duel against her arranged marriage fiance. It's already romantic enough as a human male. But pick any other race or gender and it skyrockets.

Cassandra - I had such a wonderful time doing her romance quest. I went out by myself to collect all the things for the romantic picnic and it was no picnic. I got attacked by several  bears that I had to fight alone mind you. That added to my experience, but the actual scene is incredibly saccharine and wonderful. I enjoyed it to say the least.

Solas - He breaks up with you. A bajillion points right there for that. But I simply love the scene where he removes Lavellan's vallaslin if she wants. It's so ethereally beautiful.

Dorian - Points for also breaking up with me. While I don't have any great feelings for his romance arc I had a wonderful time with a little glitch I got that made us simultaneously broken up and together in Trespasser. Great fun, will probably never get to experience it again.

23 — Favorite Inquisition companion

Ah, I don't have a favorite companion either. Definitely ones I like more than the others, but a favorite? Nope.

24 — Favorite Inquisition location

The Storm Coast. It reminds me of my beloved Wounded Coast. I just love staring out into that violent water from the shore. I've killed my Inquisitor a lot of times by just walking straight into it until he "drowns" and respawns.

25 — Favorite Inquisition quest

I really like the two quests after settling the mage-templar war: Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts and Here Lies the Abyss.

WEWH is a little annoying when you have to run around finding all those halla keys, but otherwise it's an interesting type of quest with political implications and a few really fun scenes.

HLA is the quest with Hawke in it and I love my Hawke sooooo much I killed him. It was such a shocking option much like Virmire in Mass Effect (but even more so for me because I don't like Kaiden and I sacrifice him every time). It has so much emotional weight packed into it with the fear demon talking shit and everyone finding the graves where they're buried under their greatest fears and then you have to sacrifice someone and go back to dealing with the wardens. There are tons of cool scenes packed into this one and there's a dragon.

26 — Favorite Inquisition NPC

It's Gaspard. Don't talk to me.

I loved him in The Masked Empire. He quickly became my problematic fave. And even though it's more fun to dance with his sister and she's quite the challenging fight otherwise. I always have to make him Emperor. Alone.

And I love the little chat you get to have with him in the Arbor Wilds during What Pride Had Wrought. He's out there fighting for his country and his continent and I'm like hell yeah me too my guy, we're front line.

27 — Favorite Inquisition scene/dialogue

When you're invited to Vivienne's party and meet some courtiers who let you know that they've heard about you to which you can say, "Everything you've heard? Completely true." I don't know why, it's probably the really fun delivery all the VAs have put into it, but I love this line a lot and I always pick it even if my Inquisitor is denying being the Herald.

I also really like the speech you can have the Inqy give after leaving Hawke in the Fade: "He gave his life. Not because he'd sworn an oath, or been marked as special, but because someone had to do it."

28 — Favorite Inquisition lore/codex entry

The fact that there are just ancient elves living in the forest in a hidden temple. The history of the Elvhen empire rather reminds me of the Aztecs and Mayans than anything else. "Discovering" a hidden temple in a dense wilderness really hit for me.

There are a lot of new codex entries in Inquisition (2 recycled way more). Here's a new one I liked:

The Creation of a Phylactery

We let the boy rest, the first night they brought him to the White Spire, I convinced Knight-Commander Belrose to delay the ritual 'til the morning. The journey was long, and the lad could barely keep his eyes open, poor thing. I was certain escape was the furthest thing from his mind. Medine found him a clean cot in with the other young apprentices, and when I came in with his supper, he was already fast asleep.

In the morning, I showed Medine how the phial was to be prepared. First, a simple charm to preserve and protect the glass. Then a spell that to keep the blood from forming dark clots. The last step could only be completed with the apprentice present. I sent a young templar recruit off with the message that we were ready.

The boy was escorted to the chamber by Belrose himself. I could tell he had just been awakened. There was a smear of dirt from his face, perhaps from the road. I called the boy to me and cleaned his cheek with my sleeve as I explained the ritual. "We have to take your blood," I said. "Because you're special and we don't want you to be lost. If it happens, the blood will allow us to find you and bring you home again."

I let Medine take the lancet this time. The tremor in my hands was worse that day, and I didn't want to make too deep a cut. I held the boy close, and Medine made a small, neat incision on his palm, exactly as instructed. I felt the boy struggle and start to cry. He tried to pull away, but Medine gripped his hand firmly, letting the blood run into the phial.

Then Medine cast the spell, like we practiced. Within the phial, the blood churned, and grew bright in the presence of the mage to whom it was bound. It was done. Another phylactery, another link forged. He was leashed to the White Spire.

The boy could not look away from the glow. He was enthralled, and the pain and the tears were forgotten. "See? This is magic," I said to him. "When you are older, I will teach you." Belrose let the boy hold his phylactery for several minutes before he locked it away in the chamber.

—From The Memoirs of Enchanter Reva Claye, 8:72 Blessed

alaterdate: Fenris (Fenris)

31 Days of Dragon Age is a prompt list floating around tumblr meant to celebrate what we love about Dragon Age in the lead up to the release of the next game. Prompts here.
I decided to post them by game rather than each day, so here are my answers for the Dragon Age II questions.

13 — Introduce your Hawke

I've played Dragon Age II tons of times, but I only ever really clicked with two Hawkes. Pretty much the male and female default versions of mage Hawke. The one in my main world state is Aviel Hawke.

He's a straight to the point, pull no punches, slut. He was more reserved in Ferelden in all aspects, but Kirkwall is a city and Lothering was a town. There's tons more people to interact with, have sex with, and who get on his nerves that he can't quite get away from. Working with the Red Iron also made him more brazen about using his magic, despite the Kirkwall Gallows being the worst Circle on the face of Thedas.

Since he didn't always fight using his magic he's good at actually using his staff as a pole axe. Doing work on the farms in Lothering also gave him plenty of muscle and stamina. (I never dress him in mage robes other than the champion armor thus he has a ridiculous strength stat for a mage.)

Force Magic comes naturally to him as it did his father and sister. He's also efficient with Elemental Magic, but it's not as subtle for use in Kirkwall proper. Unfortunately, he's useless with Creation Magic, so he won't be healing anyone any time soon. (You can select two specializations in DA2, but I only ever choose Force Mage for him.)

Even though he's a curmudgeon he has a ridiculous sense of responsibility stemming from having to take care of his family after his father's death. As his family dwindles he becomes ever more concerned with the state of Kirkwall. it's his city, it's his home.

14 — Favorite DA2 romance

Fenris. No question. Hands down.

The first time I played I was flirting with everyone I met, and then I saw him. I immediately knew he was the one. (But also I still totally slept with Isabela. Who wouldn't, she's hot. Fenris gets with her too if you don't romance either of them.) And I'm pretty sure my first romance with him was a friendmance.

Obviously over the course of playing the game a zillion more times I ended up liking the Fenris rivalmance more than his friendmance.

It's because I really love Fenris when he's at his bitchiest.

15 — Favorite DA2 companion

Also Fenris. But I really like Carver and Isabela, and Merril too.

Ignoring Fenris. Carver is also really good because of his bitchiness. I love working on getting his rivalry into friendship, it adds a lot to his character when he lives past the deep roads.

Isabela is so fun. I only recently found out that she interacts with NPCs walking around the docks! It's a neat little thing.

Merrill is a dear. I love the dichotomy of her naivety and her truccing with demons. She obviously knows what she's doing as a mage, but she has no clue outside of that. She is one of the characters that I absolutely see no point in rivalling. I have done it in a playthrough to see it, but in my opinion she's in the right and there's no reason to treat her like a child as Marethari does.

16 — Favorite DA2 location

The cave. No, not that cave, the other one. No, just kidding. It's Hightown. I love the squareness. The white, the red. The mansion area. The hallways, the floor. My other favorite places like Fenris' mansion, the Chantry, the Keep, and the Rose are there too. I love walking around there day or night. I also like the Storm Coast, I like being near the water and looking at it. It's so nice.

17 — Favorite DA2 quest

The end of Act II. Running through the city and Meredith finally making an appearance. And in such a badass way too. Then there's the Arishok fight at the end of it too which is challenging and fun.

Going into the Fade to help Feynriel is another quest I really like. Chasing that stupid ass book around the pillars and the fucking barrel puzzles, lmao so stupid. Of course I love when the companions turn on Hawke and you have to fight them. Fenris often 1HKOs me lmao. The best part though is actually the quests after the fade mission when the companions attempt to apologize for selling Hawke out for one corn chip.

18 — Favorite DA2 NPC

Meredith. The Arishok.

It's unbelievably sexy to get the Arishok to respect you. And while Meridith will never respect you, I'll play her little lap dog, woof woof.

There are more interesting facets to them, but eh you get the gist of it.

19 — Favorite DA2 scene/dialogue

Oh I have so many. They are mostly related to Fenris. The one I probably think about the most is A Bitter Pill; when Fenris kills Hadriana and the conversation in the immediate aftermath of that. I don't pick the flirt option here because mage Hawke has a much better dialogue option that is so fucking good. "Watch what you say about mages."

Fenris

May she rot and all the other mages with her.

Hawke

Don't forget who you're talking to.

Fenris

I haven't forgotten.

It's like the Hamlet nunnery scene to me idk lmao.

There's also the iconic "What has magic touched that it doesn't spoil?" line in this scene. Emery does such good voice acting in this scene too. I also really like it in French. Honestly, I can pick this scene apart more, but I'll move on.

20 — Favorite DA2 lore/codex entry

The Enigma of Kirkwall is a good one of course. All the crazy Kirkwall blood magic, thin veil shit is super interesting. But there's a couple more innocuous ones I like.

History of the Circle

It is a truth universally acknowledged that nothing is more successful at inspiring a person to mischief as being told not to do something. Unfortunately, the Chantry of the Divine Age had some trouble with obvious truths. Although it did not outlaw magic—quite the contrary, as the Chantry relied upon magic to kindle the eternal flame which burns in every brazier in every chantry—it relegated mages to lighting candles and lamps. Perhaps occasional dusting of rafters and eaves.

I will give my readers a moment to contemplate how well such a role satisfied the mages of the time.

It surprised absolutely no one when the mages of Val Royeaux, in protest, snuffed the sacred flames of the cathedral and barricaded themselves inside the choir loft. No one, that is, but Divine Ambrosia II, who was outraged and attempted to order an Exalted March upon her own cathedral. Even her most devout Templars discouraged that idea. For 21 days, the fires remained unlit while negotiations were conducted, legend tells us, by shouting back and forth from the loft.

The mages went cheerily into exile in a remote fortress outside of the capital, where they would be kept under the watchful eye of the Templars and a council of their own elder magi. Outside of normal society, and outside of the Chantry, the mages would form their own closed society, the Circle, separated for the first time in human history.

—From Of Fires, Circles, and Templars: A History of Magic in the Chantry, by Sister Petrine, Chantry scholar.

The Qunari - Asit tal-eb

When the Ashkaari looked upon the destruction wrought by locusts,
He saw at last the order in the world.
A plague must cause suffering for as long as it endures,
Earthquakes must shatter the land.
They are bound by their being.
Asit tal-eb. It is to be.
For the world and the self are one.
Existence is a choice.
A self of suffering, brings only suffering to the world.
It is a choice, and we can refuse it.

—An excerpt from The Qun, Canto 4

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Rite Gud ended early last month. I'd been listening for a few years now, even before the squeecore thing. I think I started around the time she did the two episodes on fandom or at least around when she went on that fanfic diatribe on twitter. Despite thinking Benedict has too much of a taste for the dramatic (acting like fanfic killed her grandmother) the podcast was still interesting to listen to (if sometimes aggravating). I will miss the discussions. I will not miss Raquel's cats however. (Love cats, but the bit got old fast.)

I haven't found any other writing podcasts I like either. I tried listening to V.E. Schwab's writing podcast, but I find that she's just a tad too meandering when one of her friends are on. However, I was introduced to S.A. Cosby through her podcast so that's something.

Yes, this is a thinly veiled invitation to recommend me podcasts.

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31 Days of Dragon Age is a prompt list floating around tumblr meant to celebrate what we love about Dragon Age in the lead up to the release of the next game. Prompts here.
I decided to post them by game rather than each day, so here are my answers for the Dragon Age Awakening questions.

09 — Favorite Awakening companion

It's... Anders. I still think he's ugly (no offense Anders fans) and dislike him in DA2. But in Awakening he is absolutely hilarious. And he loves cats. And we get to give him a cat. Part of me is glad that I played DA2 before I got my hands on a copy of Awakening because I probably would have been devastated by his personality turn. But the other way around I get to be happily treated to a version of him I like after knowing a version I dislike.

I'm also gonna mention that I love Mhairi and that she dies. What a shock! What a perfect tone setter. And I also like Nathaniel because I like that either we've just killed his dad because he was in the way or for revenge. It's good stuff.

10 — Favorite Awakening quest

It has to be the part where the Architect steals your pants. The first time I played it was the same time I was romancing Morrigan and had gotten her ring. As I mentioned before in prompt 2, my warden was livid about having that ring taken away from him. That made the quest really fun for me. But I also love a good naked dungeon escape quest. I also like escaping Fort Drakon in Origins.

Other than that I loved the meetings with the nobles and the commoners where everyone yelled at me about where I decided to station guards (A Day in Court). The political stuff was such a treat! I wish we could have gotten more of that in DA2. It kind of feels like they were going to add that, but didn't have time, and then plopped something similar into DAI. I also super loved when the angry nobles who tried to assassinate the warden showed up in DA2 and Hawke killed them, lmao. (Though it shows up as quest in 2 based on what happened to Amaranthine rather than how you handled A Day in Court).

I also like any time we get to fight in the Keep. So in the beginning and optionally toward the end. It's an interesting map and thematically cool to be under siege.

11 — Favorite Awakening scene/dialogue

The part in the Blackmarsh when the First realizes that he was betrayed by the Mother is such a good moment. He's immediately like "time to team up with another evil scary lady!" not the Warden.

I also like making the choice in Amaranthine about whether to protect the city or the keep. They make it seem like you can only save one, but that's not true. The tension though, the drama.

12 — Favorite Awakening lore/codex entry

It's the Architect himself. He's (of course) brought up in The Calling, but idk you don't think you're gonna actually meet the guy. And then you do. And it's so cool.

I did not like him in The Calling, and the more Bregan fell in with him the more I shook my head. So actually the confronting the Architect in Awakening was fun.

As for a specific codex entry. These two are so fucked.

Codex entry: The Architect's Journal

The Seeker collected two elves, male and female. The rest died defending their camp. Unfortunate, but a small price to pay. The male has since dashed his head on the wall. Odd. Don't all living beings strive for survival?

The Seeker confessed that he did more than simply collect the elves. He found the elves and humans at odds, then exacerbated the conflict by making the humans look responsible for the two elves' disappearances. He said he wanted to see how the elf leader would react. Odd again.

The female elf has developed a...bond of sorts with her guard. Many of the other disciples seem drawn to her as well. The Seeker says her name is Seranni. Perhaps I should speak to her. Maybe she will understand.

Codex entry: The Architect's Notes

(These are scribbles on loose sheets of paper, barely decipherable.)

What happens if the Old Gods perish? Does the song die with them?

The blood is the key. The blood is always the key.

The female elf is accommodating, allowing me to take her blood for my work. Perhaps she thinks I'll release her if she cooperates.

My disciples report that another elf is rampaging through the woods, killing humans. Revenge for what we did to her kind, only she hasn't seen through the Seeker's ruse. We'll keep this from Seranni. If she is upset, she may stop cooperating.

Perhaps I should have killed it while it slept.

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31 Days of Dragon Age is a prompt list floating around tumblr meant to celebrate what we love about Dragon Age in the lead up to the release of the next game. Prompts here.
I decided to post them by game rather than each day, so here are my answers for the Dragon Age Origins questions.

01 — Introduce your Hero of Ferelden

I've had a few HoFs, which over the years I narrowed down into three world states, that over the years narrowed even further into my favorite single world state.

So, my main HoF is Lachlan Surana.

He's a silver-tongued devil who uses his charm and competence to manipulate people. It's ironic that his magical talents are best served as a healer and through other forms of Creation magic. He realizes this is where his power lies and learns the ways of the Spirit Healer. Being needed is more secure than being liked, after all.

Even though he's drawn to power he is adamant against the use of blood magic—to him it's a sign of weakness. And it's not as if he wasn't indoctrinated against in by the Chantry in the Circle he grew up in. However, he has a penchant for interacting with strange vials, first with the Arcane Warrior's phylactery then later gaining the Power of Blood (though he only uses this on Darkspawn and... other Wardens).

His perniciousness began to lessen only after 70% of the story. He was unconcerned with the plights of others and flippant about making choices that would affect them, until they snowballed into his biggest fuck up. There was no other choice besides the worst one because his own choices made the world a worse place. It was a moment of realization that he should consider his actions more seriously. But did it really make him a better person? Or did it just add to his arsenal of manipulation by making him realize that he can also make use of pieces he dislikes in his games of 4D chess?

When he learns that a Warden must die to defeat the Archdemon he realized that he would not let Alistair die for him nor did he desire to die. Morrigan presented him with the way out and he selfishly took it.

After the events of the Fifth Blight and Awakening he is ordered to make a statement at Weisshaupt. Though the Wardens there do not particularly care one way or another about him after settling the record they let him retain his status as the Warden-Commander of Ferelden. Of course the Ferelden born recruited into his command embrace him as their hero, but those transferred from Orlais are more wary of this newcomer.

Shortly after this he very nearly abandons his post anyway to pursue Morrigan and her child and later to retrieve his phylactery.

02 — Favorite Origins romance

While Alistair is my Warden's cannon romance, I actually prefer Morrigan's romance in DA:O.

Alistair is sweet and all, and he has a super cute romance arc. But it's so much more fun to get someone prickly to like you. Seeing Morrigan let down her guard somewhat is exhilarating. I also love that she gives you a ring as a memento.

In Awakening when you're captured by the Architect and stripped of your belongings they took Morrigan's ring and my Warden was extremely pissed about this. It was the one thing I cared about retrieving (and worried IRL that it would be a victim the equipment bug! Luckily I only lost Sigrun's shoes forever.)

Morrigan also has the Witch Hunt DLC which makes a perfect book end to her romance!

03 — Favorite Origins companion

Honestly, gonna throw somewhat of a curveball in here. Alistair or Morrigan is the obvious choice for me, but I also really really love Shale.

I played plenty of time without Shale and boy I was missing out. The first time I got her I absolutely loved everything about her and she immediately became a staple in my party. I sometimes even suffer through that abysmal puzzle to get her for my more good-hearted characters too.

I love that she's so pissed about birds, it's hilarious. However she also has her deep side to her like the other party members. They didn't skimp on her characterization just because she came in a DLC package.

Her personal quest is one of my favorite environments in the Deep Roads and I love the little revelation she has when we meet Caridin.

I love to take story relevant characters with me on quests. So one time I went into the Deep Roads with my Warden (mage), Shale (warrior), Oghren (warrior), and my LI Alistair (warrior). LMAO. It was really fun combat too actually. And I never had to go back up to Orzammar because I couldn't open many of the chests, lol.

04 — Favorite Origins location

I already mentioned that I love the look of the Deep Roads section where some of Shale's personal quest takes place, it's pretty.

I also really like the area right outside of Orzammar where part of Sten's quest takes place. It's just so bleak, lol.

Ooh, I also really like Kinloch Hold's repository. That Tevinter statue and the other artifacts down there are so cool. I don't even use that staff for long, but I whenever I play as Lachlan I make sure his coercion is already high so I can get away with stealing it, lol.

Soldier's Peak is really neat too. The snow, bleakness, spookiness, the magical barriers, and the purpleness of it all.

And speaking of spooky, the haunted house. Omg love it.

I could keep going! I don't have one specific favorite.

05 — Favorite Origins quest

Honestly, it's the origins. They're the most unique and fun part of Origins. They were so good and we'll never have them back, but we can replay them over and over.

I'd say that the most boring origin is the Mage one. It's mostly running around the tower and of course, I still get lost in there to this day.... It's fine, but compared to the others it has the least tension and action.

Yet, this is the one I've played the most, as I've replayed Lachlan's story plenty of times. I'd say the most compelling thing about it (besides being the only way to play as a mage) is that it gives you an RP reason to not understand anything about the world, lol. I think it could have done a better job focusing on more characters in the tower and even your PCs relationship with Jowan.

The best origin. Oof, that I can't decide. I enjoy the way Dalish Elf opens up with that tense confrontation in the forest. And City Elf, do I even need to extoll its air of tension? And both of the Dwarven origins are incredibly fucked up. It immediately shows us the terrible class tensions in Orzammar. And the Human Noble origin takes a bit to pick up, but my the time Howe is raiding your castle you are fully invested in your family and the stakes.

They are all really well crafted and it's such a treat to be able to start RPing your character before the main story begins. Even though the origins don't change the character you make has plenty of ways to interact with the world and start cementing their unique personality.

06 — Favorite Origins NPC

This encompasses so many characters. I'll have to say Anora though.

She gets a lot of hate, I too once despised her. But after playing the game a few more times I realized that she's exactly the kind of character I like. Competent, clever, makes power plays. Her really pissing me off in my first playthrough began to actually make me smile the more I reflected on her character.

She fucking got me. It wasn't even the thing where she tells Ser Cauthrien (whomst is another NPC I really like) that you're kidnapping her. That didn't happen to me on my first playthrough (I straight up just fought Ser Cauthrian). It was the conversation you have with her in Eamon's Estate. She didn't like what I said, lol.

I foolishly did not think anything would come of this. I vividly remember standing in the middle of the Landsmeet and being fucking shook. (And then I got her back, by making my warden queen, because I'm petty.) The Landsmeet is such a good quest.

I wish we got more of her in Origins. There's that one cutscene where she asks her father if he murdered Cailan, and even though she's shrugged off you can see it in her. The wheels are turning. Then she's able to orchestrate her escape from Howe and show up to the Landsmeet flush with regal power and sway.

Only a real idiot would entertain the notion of divorcing this woman. I actually have yet to play the male Cousland route where you can marry her, but c'mon why wouldn't you. I always have her stay queen, whether or not I have Alistair marry her. She deserves that throne.

07 — Favorite Origins scene/dialogue

For cutscenes you just gotta love the opening with Duncan. It's visually interesting, the voice acting is great and the story it presents is interesting. Mages tried to usurp heaven and ended up bringing a horrible disease back to earth with them? Wow!

I also love the scene where the horde of Darkspawn descends on Ostagar. It still looks good after all these years!

My favorite dialogue is a lot simpler. It's when you find Howe's spy in the tavern outside Redcliffe and he claims that he has nothing to do with the reanimated corpses attacking the town. I love choosing "I do believe you (Kill him)". I think about it all the time. Sorry Berwick.

08 — Favorite Origins lore/codex entry

I suppose it's actually from a DLC, but I have to say it's The History if the Drydens. I love everything going on with Sophia Dryden. I love that King Arland was so scared by her presence. And I love that the Drydens who returned to Ferelden are proud of her. It's just, great. She was a real one.

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Planned to make this post the same day [community profile] smallweb's Small Web September ended. But here it is now!

SWS was such a good event. I enjoyed seeing what everyone was working on and all the sharing of resources and encouragement was wonderful to see. The weekly posts helped keep me motivated too. I didn't even plan to do as much as I did, but once I decided September was for working on the website that is all I did.

Usually when I go on my little hobby benders I feel conflicted about it, because it's usually not planned. I even started working on my website in late August unplanned. But then the event came along and it changed my mindset. September was the month for working on my website and I was free to not do anything else.

So what all did I get up to?

Read more... )

I am certainly pleased about everything I finished. I've been meaning to make a shrine for a while now, but I thought making that splash page was gonna be too hard. (It wasn't really.) I also ended up writing over 10k words just for the primer/manifesto. My total word count for September is 19,033. That's the most I have probably ever managed in a single month.

It was great and I feel creatively refreshed and inspired!

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Anyone know of any K-drama comms on here?

Not having any luck searching myself. I've tried google, bing, marginalia.nu, and searched [community profile] fandom_on_dw and [site community profile] dw_community_promo so far, but haven't seen anything.

Hopefully there actually is one though. I'm trying to lure another friend into using dreamwdith lol.

Any help finding a comm would be appreciated. Thanks!

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Working on my website again and it is very fun! I'm redoing the formatting of my book reviews because it was really stressful putting them up the way I was trying to do it. It looking like a magazine is cute and all, but it makes me dread even the thought of putting up a review. So I'm making it much more simple. (Also cleaning up a lot of the excessive folder stuff I had going on because I don't like how the urls look lol. And cutting down CSS files and trying to optimize the videos and images more.)

I was taking stock of all the reviews I've posted here on DW. In 2020 and 2022 I posted at least 14 reviews during the year. And the rest of the years have about 4-7. And I have posted exactly 0 this year. Even though I've read like 20 books so far. Not even any small snippets on Goodreads either. However, I do have some notes in my journal for a couple books so eventually those could be published reviews. I guess I've mostly been reading non-fiction this year and I don't particularly like reviewing non-fiction. I also think I've been talking more about books, out loud with people, in person. Which gets the urge of talking about books out with the downside of not having written anything down. (Also I swore I posted my Game of Thrones review here, but I didn't see it. ETA: I found it. It wasn't tagged correctly lol)

I was having a tough time writing much of anything this year, but the other day I wrote down a dream I had and it kind of opened the flood gates. It's like "wow, I can't believe that dream diary first thing when you wake up in the morning 'morning pages' stuff might actually work" even though I did try morning pages earlier this year and it was a bust. Fortuity.

Anyway, I'm learning how CSS Grids work and ohhhh em gee. They are so much easier than flex-boxes for some stuff. Still hate tweaking responsive design for mobile, but grids made it so much easier :^O
I watched this video on Youtube like three times, slowly fading the abject confusion, until I was able to write the CSS for my new book reviews page all by myself :~) (It's not live yet though :3c And it's very simple, but hooray!)

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I wonder if I went too folder crazy on my website... or not... perhaps... it makes sense.
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So I'm trying to get through Baldur's Gate I again. I'm playing a Lawful Evil character, which probably isn't a good choice for a first full-playthrough character. My last two abandoned characters were definitely good aligned. But this time I feel like I have more of a handle on what to actually do in this game. Except I went to the Friendly Arm Inn first and got Jaheria and Khalid, and I wish I hadn't. Hanging out with them doesn't feel right for my character, but last time I walked straight into the mining town and teamed up with that evil wizard so I thought I'd actually do what the game told me to do this time and it sucks. I wanna drop them, but I also want to do the mine quest with them since they're the ones who told me about it. BUT Dorn just showed up and I think he's super awesome and I wanted him in my party, but everyone was like "nooo" 🙄 so I got annoyed and turned the game off lol. I need to think if I want to just ditch all these goody two-shoes since I'm evil anyway. I guess I could do the mine quest with these two then go to the inn to get Dorn, idk.

Also, Garrick's intro was really funny to me. I saw that the lady he was hanging out with had no portrait and I was like hmmm, and then I killed her because I wanted to and he was like "welp, she's dead, guess I'll hang out with you." Hilarious.

Playing this game makes me want to replay Pillars of Eternity too, which is funny.

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