3 Second Memory

[alaterdate]

Earlier this month I was so into writing my silly little fics. Got really into using Ellipsus. I like the drafting system, but it's mostly because I can log in very easily at work, teehee (nothing in there is explicit, it's all gen fic for now.). I even finished one! It's gonna get one last breathing room pass before it goes up on the website. My website that I did not forget about. Pssh.

Yeah, and then I totally didn't sideline fic to start playing Warhammer 40K: Rogue Trader (yes I did, and it's pretty fun). Then my friend got me into Love and Deepspace and I have no idea where all my time has gone. Life is a blur of sexy pixel men and little red diamonds.

I watched Grand Theft Hamlet with my friend and we went out to lunch after at a Vietnamese place I hadn't been to since 2017. It was still good! The movie/documentary was also interesting. I thought it would just be funny watching them get killed in GTA Online, but I rather liked their production of Hamlet in the game that we got to see. And I was very glad that it made my friend interested in Hamlet!

I have 15 books out from the library, but I cannot bring myself to start reading a single one (RIP). I did finish reading Prince of Thorns by Mark Lawrence in early April. Quite fun, I really enjoyed it.
I was doing the audiobook/text combo of A Court of Thorns and Roses in French, but Rogue Trader ended that too before it got blowed away itself. I ended up catching up on some comics I have bookmarked though. And just binged a really good one called Dead Man's Switch.

Even when my internet conked out for 3 days, what did I do? Lounged around with my phone's wifi (reading those comics lmao). There aren't enough hours in the day and I cannot get a grip on how easily distracted I am. I have half a crocheted blanket next to me right now. It's absolutely wild how I cannot remember anything I've done if I'm not journalling about it. Am I a goldfish??

Work has been a little stressful because one of the volunteers I am in charge of has suddenly started doing a real dog shit job and I'm like—I don't want to kick you to the curb, but come on bruh. I feel like there's very little I can do. And it makes me not want to take on more volunteers because look—I'm already having trouble managing this many! I wish I wasn't the sole person in charge of them, but I can't seem to work out any communication channels that will get everyone else on board. They see it as "not my department" yet are very eager to tell me when it's going wrong, thanks!!!!!! My best friend told me I need to be more of a bitch lmao. Other than that area though I've been having fun with the events and my other program, I love getting to let my theatrical nature shine.

Anyway, I was writing this to remember what the heck I've been up to all month. I really need to get back into journalling regularly.

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[neotula]

skimming the site for ellipsus and it looks pretty nice: been looking for an online alternative for google docs for writing nsfw, so i'll have to check that out as i've been getting pretty uncomfortable keeping anything nsfw on there.

also can't wait to hear more of your thoughts on rogue trader and love and deepspace! who's been your favorite lad so far? who are you thinking about romancing in rogue trader?

[alaterdate]

I tried Ellipsus out because google pisses me off and I don't want to use their docs or sheets anymore. Ellipsus is pretty simple, but I have been enjoying using it. Like I mentioned, the way you can keep and merge drafts has been a nice feature. I'm the type of person who keeps severals drafts shoved in my PC and notebooks so being able to have them all in one place and edit them into one master draft has been helpful. I also like signing in to the website with a code too instead of the alternative of my whole damn google account.

In Rogue Trader I've only finished Act I so far. Playing dogmatic female officer. My friend told me "you're going to love the elves" and from what I've seen around I agree lmao, but with leaning heavily into a dogmatic character (xenophopic, mutant-hater lmao) I will probably just have to kill them when I meet them or something. I wish Pasqal was a romance option, but I think I'm just gonna go for Heinrix on this first run. The game has been very fun so far. I enjoy Owlcat's writing. And I haven't encountered any bugs yet, lol

lads immediately got a strangle hold on me the second it finished downloading lmao. Going in I thought my favorites would probably be Zayne and/or Sylus based on content my friend had shown me (those are her faves lmao so I had heard a lot about them). I didn't even know Xavier existed and didn't hear much about the other two. But... out of left field it's Rafayel who became my favorite. There's a lot about him that just clicked for me even though I do not think he's my usual type of favorite character. I'm extremely surprised that Caleb has not been working for me so far, from what I had heard about him I'd thought he'd be my cup of tea, however I haven't finished his main story section or watched his myths yet so we'll see. I generally like all the guys though, so I'm having a fun time with everything I get.

How about you? I did start playing Rogue Trader because of your posts about it! I know you did a Marazhai romance and i think I'd go for that one next, so any tips on the kind of character to make to do that romance? And I'd love to talk about lads with you too :D Who are your favorites?

[neotula]

Pasqual is so good! I wish he was a romance too!

For my Marazhai romance I went with a iconoclast character, but I’m framing it in my head as her “warhammer setting typical falling to chaos” as I’m gonna be honest, I’ve found it pretty hard to justify keeping the xenos around for any real lore reasons. It’s not a smart choice! But I want all the characters I can get for my squad.

(You could definitely make the romance work while playing a heretic, but you do get some cool unique options late game wrt marazhai while playing iconoclast.)

Also Rafayel is so good! I was impressed with how much I liked him and his story—I think if this was a non-dating sim type game, he’d definitely be my favorite. I’ve really been liking sylus and zayne, and Caleb is also real interesting.

I do feel like doing more of Caleb’s story + getting his most recent myth did make him a lot more sympathetic and interesting to me. I’m curious to see where they go from here with him.

I’ve actually been doing one of Xavier’s myths in game recently—I was pretty uninterested in him, but his myth has made me actually curious about him.

I feel like I kinda bounce between lads with who’s my current favorite, but I typically pull for sylus lmao.