alaterdate | War of the Words (Reply)

I had been excitedly keeping my friend updated on my writing project for the last month saying "Oh I hit #k words today" and "Almost finished with this chapter! Can't wait for you to read this!" With her replying for me to hurry up because she was excited to read it. And the entire time I was talking about my fanfiction project, but she thought I was talking about my original novel. L M A O.

I haven't even worked on my novel since early September. It's in that middle-part slump and I feel like my characters don't have enough character (especially the main character, who is supposed to be a little stoic, but it's not coming off as an actual personality trait rn imo). The plot also just feels RIDICULOUS at this point and I'm having a tough time connecting the middle scenes to later scenes I want. sigh

It's really nice that someone is excited about my original work, but I want some space from it. I've hit such a stride with my fanfiction project too while I got stuck in my original projects. I love all 3 of the projects I've been working on (1 FF series, 2 novels), but I switched between them so much that I hardly got anything done between the three of them. I decided last month that I'd only work on one of them and because I was having a lot of fun in a fandom discord so I chose the fanfiction. Thought I could whip out all the parts I want to do for Nano, but I quit that after like 16k words to play videogames (WAY TOO MUCH) instead :^p I did however develop a better writing habit during the couple of weeks of Nano I did participate in, but it's slowly declining lol.

I'm a little annoyed at myself about writing recently though because I write and write, and talk about writing, but I don't post anything. I always feel like "Oh this can't be posted yet, it's not edited. No one can read this yet! Not even my best friend!" Even if I don't even expect anyone will read it lol. Is this perfectionism or embarrassment, or both!?

If you experienced apprehensiveness about posting your work how did you push past it?